迷茫

原本还想放弃这个地方，

但是，还是回来了。

因为彷徨。

每个人因梦想而伟大，

我却因为很多不知道是否该称之为梦想的梦想而感到无助和无奈。

我想离开审核师的生活了，

虽然觉得还有很多学习的空间，

但是却在这个时侯，觉得有点懒惰了。

不知道是懒惰导致我变得讨厌这份工作，

还是这份工作让我变得懒惰。

是否该继续深造？是否该改行？

这样的问题让我一直觉得好迷茫。

我真的可以放弃以前我所做的努力？

当每个人都在努力向前奔跑的同时，

我却却步了。

因为，

我总觉得，

我想要的，并不是我正在做着的。

但却又不是很确定。

我该怎么办呢？

生活失去自律的我

有点想遗弃掉这个常常被我遗忘的部落格。

因为真的很懒惰分享一切。

不是因为自私，而是不懂该有什么分享，更不懂该从何说起。

近来的我真的有难点不是那么的好运，

新车撞了两三次，也不懂该说我的skill太好，还是因为我是新手。

在生活方面也一团糟，不知到是不是工作上的问题，

连带我自己也没有办法提起劲来处理家里的一些琐碎事。

譬如说，我的衣橱书桌还是那么的乱。

房间收拾并没有以前念书那么频密。

做什么事情总是拖泥带水。

譬如说，

我应该要积极的找出我车保险卡和车卡。

明明有几天让我找，我却总是拖到星期日晚上才找，而且还找不到！

真的很糟糕。

又或者应该每个月月头必须做好财务规划，但却总是一天拖一天。

我的天啊！！！

怎么办才好啊我？

懒惰成这样，失去自律。。。

我的懒惰虫，你何时才会离开我呢？

Anyway, 我不应该每天都在这里分享我的不快乐和埋怨！

下次得记录一些开心的事情XD

Stressful week

This is my very first time to feel stress after work in GT.

I always think that I should not complaint about my work as compare to my friends those who work in other big 4, they always OT and workload are heavy.

I am always worry about I will start to work like cow after my company restructuring.

It's because my group's combine with another group so some of its portfolio will change to our group.

And, this week i handle a rubbish company with ex-blue group senior.

The way of presenting the working paper is totally different and I feel the work is tougher compare to my previous job.

I just able to finish one of my cycle and others just in half way.

I cant believe that I am not able to finish my working paper within one week.

All the information provided by the client are shit and it is really drive me crazy!

Another bad thing happen to me is i had car accident, luckily it is not so serious......

and no need compensate for anything...

I've been thinking of whether I am capable to work as an auditor or not?

This year is really make me full of stress and less of fun...

OK~ no more stress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A stupid ~me

Lately become so emo,

yea, it does really happen something that i never expected.

I just can say i am a person who will be easily concentrate on someone...

It is not a problem that is either good or bad to have such personality,

But I suggest not to be a person same like me,

As the one who will be suffering is yourself but not the person u care him/ her so much.

You wont revenge on him even after he treat bad for return.

Then what can you do in order to avoid yourself being harm?

It is very easy, and u just need to be rational...

Actually it is very hard to do it as I am the sample that u can see...

I am the most stupid person in the world as always getting harm even I have get through this more than you expected.

I have never learn the lesson before and repeating the same thing again at the end...

So what would get at the end?

I can tell you... You are really damn stupid... that's all..

So what is the point for me to repeat it?

Just because it is me and ...OK...

Not i dont want to be more rational, not because i am very stubborn,

just because i really cant change it ...........

Nothing can help me, the one who can help me is myself...

see when there is a miracle happen on me and make myself be smarter!

Ok, i am really sad now....

just hope myself can disappear for a while and become a powerful pooi yin again the next day!

最近迷恋的电视剧

现在热播的连续剧。。。谈情说案！

当我知道这套连续剧要播放的时候，那种兴奋的感觉难以形容。

熟悉我的朋友，就知道我很迷恋林莑。

他总是给我一种大男孩，但是又很腼腆的感觉。。。每当他笑的时候，总有种让我怦然心动的感觉。

哈哈。。。我知道这已经是一种病态了。

不过，这种病态就让我维持到这套戏播放完毕再说！

直到目前为止，最让我难忘的一幕是当林莑向杨怡表白的时候。

杨怡的表情让人感到好笑。

她那种就像忽然间中了头奖的感觉-让人无法相信，就如置身于梦中。

就算证实了，却让人有种不是很踏实的感觉。

现实中的自己，何尝也不希望自己有遭一日真的“中了头奖”呢？

不过这种机率真的还罕见过遇到UFO.

林莑的歌，百听不厌=）

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主唱∶林峯
作曲∶邓智伟
填词∶张美贤
编曲：Johnny Yim
监制：邓智伟

记得当时谁路过　秒针忽然停顿过
气温湿度曾骤变太多
记忆不停重叠过　你的表情提示过
爱的　可能是我

想法太乱　幻觉太多
疑虑很大　直到说不清楚
心算太慢　但仍然算错
找对人　偏错过

＊直到开始想喜欢我　直到终於不喜欢我
　直到碰上一个　逃避一个
　追不上　躲不过
　直到开始找不到我　直到终於不想找我
　直到你擦身过　才认得我
　彼此也在折磨　像当初＊

想法太乱　直觉对麼
疑虑很大　直到爱不清楚
当这世上　全怀疑我错
总有人　相信我

*记得十扑，十扑这套戏哦~

Murmur

Hi, I am back~

Totally has no idea why i am so busy lately...

Summore just make myself to engage in a complicated matter....

I dont know why suddenly so many things come to me,

I just wish to be simple and happy with my busy but simple life now.

I am really satisfy with it.

But dont know since when,

I have started to think so much...

It's just because I require for so much?

Maybe...

Sigh, always have nothing to share but just my complaint...............

I hope it will back to normal...

phon, just try not to think so much k?

Nice Trip in Ipoh

These two months I am damn busy because of my work.

I know I have started to complaint about my job since three months before.

However, I am really appreciate and feel lucky that I am one of the family members in GT.

This week i just went to my Ipoh client's company.

I really have to say that " He is such a good client and Director that I have never met !"

I went to Melaka outstation about one week before, since that time I have bad impression on outstation.

But now i have totally change my mind that actually outstation is not that bad and even can gain more experience =)

The client will fetch us to work and back to hotel everyday and we dont need to spend any money at all during the week in Melacca as the client will bring us for lunch and dinner.

Summore the client will explain any of our question and is really really cooperate with us!

I damn like this Director!

But just heard a bad news from my dear which my firm has merged the blue group wif yellow and red.

As normally our yellow group will have off peak soon but now..............................

I totally cant imagine since some of the blue group clients have been transferred to yellow.

But nevermind, I have in faith on myself that I can get over with all of these things!

=)