生活失去自律的我

有点想遗弃掉这个常常被我遗忘的部落格。

因为真的很懒惰分享一切。

不是因为自私，而是不懂该有什么分享，更不懂该从何说起。

近来的我真的有难点不是那么的好运，

新车撞了两三次，也不懂该说我的skill太好，还是因为我是新手。

在生活方面也一团糟，不知到是不是工作上的问题，

连带我自己也没有办法提起劲来处理家里的一些琐碎事。

譬如说，我的衣橱书桌还是那么的乱。

房间收拾并没有以前念书那么频密。

做什么事情总是拖泥带水。

譬如说，

我应该要积极的找出我车保险卡和车卡。

明明有几天让我找，我却总是拖到星期日晚上才找，而且还找不到！

真的很糟糕。

又或者应该每个月月头必须做好财务规划，但却总是一天拖一天。

我的天啊！！！

怎么办才好啊我？

懒惰成这样，失去自律。。。

我的懒惰虫，你何时才会离开我呢？

Anyway, 我不应该每天都在这里分享我的不快乐和埋怨！

下次得记录一些开心的事情XD

Stressful week

This is my very first time to feel stress after work in GT.

I always think that I should not complaint about my work as compare to my friends those who work in other big 4, they always OT and workload are heavy.

I am always worry about I will start to work like cow after my company restructuring.

It's because my group's combine with another group so some of its portfolio will change to our group.

And, this week i handle a rubbish company with ex-blue group senior.

The way of presenting the working paper is totally different and I feel the work is tougher compare to my previous job.

I just able to finish one of my cycle and others just in half way.

I cant believe that I am not able to finish my working paper within one week.

All the information provided by the client are shit and it is really drive me crazy!

Another bad thing happen to me is i had car accident, luckily it is not so serious......

and no need compensate for anything...

I've been thinking of whether I am capable to work as an auditor or not?

This year is really make me full of stress and less of fun...

OK~ no more stress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A stupid ~me

Lately become so emo,

yea, it does really happen something that i never expected.

I just can say i am a person who will be easily concentrate on someone...

It is not a problem that is either good or bad to have such personality,

But I suggest not to be a person same like me,

As the one who will be suffering is yourself but not the person u care him/ her so much.

You wont revenge on him even after he treat bad for return.

Then what can you do in order to avoid yourself being harm?

It is very easy, and u just need to be rational...

Actually it is very hard to do it as I am the sample that u can see...

I am the most stupid person in the world as always getting harm even I have get through this more than you expected.

I have never learn the lesson before and repeating the same thing again at the end...

So what would get at the end?

I can tell you... You are really damn stupid... that's all..

So what is the point for me to repeat it?

Just because it is me and ...OK...

Not i dont want to be more rational, not because i am very stubborn,

just because i really cant change it ...........

Nothing can help me, the one who can help me is myself...

see when there is a miracle happen on me and make myself be smarter!

Ok, i am really sad now....

just hope myself can disappear for a while and become a powerful pooi yin again the next day!

最近迷恋的电视剧

现在热播的连续剧。。。谈情说案！

当我知道这套连续剧要播放的时候，那种兴奋的感觉难以形容。

熟悉我的朋友，就知道我很迷恋林莑。

他总是给我一种大男孩，但是又很腼腆的感觉。。。每当他笑的时候，总有种让我怦然心动的感觉。

哈哈。。。我知道这已经是一种病态了。

不过，这种病态就让我维持到这套戏播放完毕再说！

直到目前为止，最让我难忘的一幕是当林莑向杨怡表白的时候。

杨怡的表情让人感到好笑。

她那种就像忽然间中了头奖的感觉-让人无法相信，就如置身于梦中。

就算证实了，却让人有种不是很踏实的感觉。

现实中的自己，何尝也不希望自己有遭一日真的“中了头奖”呢？

不过这种机率真的还罕见过遇到UFO.

林莑的歌，百听不厌=）

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主唱∶林峯
作曲∶邓智伟
填词∶张美贤
编曲：Johnny Yim
监制：邓智伟

记得当时谁路过　秒针忽然停顿过
气温湿度曾骤变太多
记忆不停重叠过　你的表情提示过
爱的　可能是我

想法太乱　幻觉太多
疑虑很大　直到说不清楚
心算太慢　但仍然算错
找对人　偏错过

＊直到开始想喜欢我　直到终於不喜欢我
　直到碰上一个　逃避一个
　追不上　躲不过
　直到开始找不到我　直到终於不想找我
　直到你擦身过　才认得我
　彼此也在折磨　像当初＊

想法太乱　直觉对麼
疑虑很大　直到爱不清楚
当这世上　全怀疑我错
总有人　相信我

*记得十扑，十扑这套戏哦~

Murmur

Hi, I am back~

Totally has no idea why i am so busy lately...

Summore just make myself to engage in a complicated matter....

I dont know why suddenly so many things come to me,

I just wish to be simple and happy with my busy but simple life now.

I am really satisfy with it.

But dont know since when,

I have started to think so much...

It's just because I require for so much?

Maybe...

Sigh, always have nothing to share but just my complaint...............

I hope it will back to normal...

phon, just try not to think so much k?

Nice Trip in Ipoh

These two months I am damn busy because of my work.

I know I have started to complaint about my job since three months before.

However, I am really appreciate and feel lucky that I am one of the family members in GT.

This week i just went to my Ipoh client's company.

I really have to say that " He is such a good client and Director that I have never met !"

I went to Melaka outstation about one week before, since that time I have bad impression on outstation.

But now i have totally change my mind that actually outstation is not that bad and even can gain more experience =)

The client will fetch us to work and back to hotel everyday and we dont need to spend any money at all during the week in Melacca as the client will bring us for lunch and dinner.

Summore the client will explain any of our question and is really really cooperate with us!

I damn like this Director!

But just heard a bad news from my dear which my firm has merged the blue group wif yellow and red.

As normally our yellow group will have off peak soon but now..............................

I totally cant imagine since some of the blue group clients have been transferred to yellow.

But nevermind, I have in faith on myself that I can get over with all of these things!

=)

April

HIHI...

Almost one month didn't updated my blog...

By the way, my convo is coming soon.

It is really sad to say that I just get 2-2 at the end and some of my friends cant graduate with me at the same time.

What can I do is just wish them all the best and they can overcome it.

The feeling is quite complicated lately.

I have been get used with my audit life...and start to like it.

Not because of the work load just the colleagues are nice (although just some of them).

And my group have 2 staffs are going to leave soon,

one is mei yee, she taught me a lot and she is nice...I like her style.

but she is going to leave soon and quite sad to know about that, as i was getting closer with her when that week we going to client office tgt.

Another is my supervisor, called ailing.... i think she leaves is because she feels no more challenges in this line.

Hmm...audit, i still feel strange to it but still have to get used with it.

Although my company culture is not that good, I still can accept.

Feeling like wana go back to my college life, but not sure what to study and be frank,

money is the main problem.

And i will getting a car soon, it is another liability to me as well.

Suddenly feel like getting elder is not as good as what i thought be4.

I have to bear a lot of responsibilities.

Have to say that I am not a small kid anymore...

another journey is waiting for me...

So far, what i can say is... i start to get used with my life now.

Hope myself still can be sociable as b4 when study in college!

Is another suffer week

This is another week that i feel suffer.

Not because of ann is not here, just feeling stress when i know this week i got to work with a senior,

who seem like always showing black face.

She really give me such impression, not only to me, but also to funny xiangyang.

I thought she will squeeze me and wont teach me anything and all working papers got to DIY.

However, at the end of the day,

I found out she is really nice, and willing to teach (but not good in explaining)..........XD

She let me try some working papers! but i feel myself very paiseh to ask client question.

Especially sometimes i feel the increase or decrease in some expenses is not a question that suppose to be asked.

But I have to! otherwise i will kena hood.

And this week i heard a lot of friends are going to resign, mainly due to they dont like repetitive works, or going to further study.

I have been thinking of such question for so many days, and there is no reason for me to resign that soon.

By the way, I really have nightmares these few weeks

Always dream about my life, my works..........

Is it because of I am really too stress?

I hope not since I feel i am the happiest one compare to those who work in audit line as well.

OK, dont hood me, even though I almost leave office at 6pm everyday.

Really hope that all of us can get through with the suffer life now~

怎么办？

短短两个月，

却像是经历了无数个月。

“当上帝为你关闭一扇门时，就会为你开启另一扇门。”

这句话，在这个月里，是我对自己，也对别人常说的一句话。

每样事情，都有好坏。

但是，幸运之神，却不是常常眷顾我们。

有时太过眷顾，却会让自己更加的害怕。

自己太过于执着某些事情，

反而会让自己更加痛苦。

本来很想把事情缩小来看，

但是一经外来刺激，那样事情却会自然的变大，推翻自己之前所想的。

这就是我自己。

还以为自己改变很多，把很多事情都看的比较轻，

其实只是不愿面对。

唉，我该何去和从呢？

追逐，等待。

似乎在追着些什么，

似乎在等待些什么。

感觉它似乎在自己的手中，

感觉它似乎并不在掌握中。

我应该等待些什么,

我应该放弃些什么。

原地踏步，并不是自己想要的。

跨越极限，却又是自己要的吗？

HAPPY CNY

haha....is damn funnyla.......

I have accidentally deleted all my posts........

but nvm..... just start all over again.

Time pass really fast and today is nian chu san.

I really damn regret that I dint apply 3 days leaves.

As i feel i have not enough time to meet up my friends.

And this year is a challenge year to me.

I have just started my working life 2 weeks ago and "resign" come to my minds when the first day i work in GT.

I really cant believe that I dont even have my own seat in the office.

But i have started to get used with that few days later.

I always thought that I can easy to fit myself into a new environment and make new friends.

And I very willing to stay longer in the office and work OT.

But if my OT will disrupt my plan, I'm really really cant accept it and make my upset.

I start to feel i have lose my own life and lose something I wish to have although I just start my working life.

This is so called "audit life" (which also mean no life).........

There are a lot of uncertainties now.

I wish myself can handle it very well.......

By the way, GONG XI FA CAI and wish you all have a prospect year!!!!!