怎么办？

短短两个月，

却像是经历了无数个月。

“当上帝为你关闭一扇门时，就会为你开启另一扇门。”

这句话，在这个月里，是我对自己，也对别人常说的一句话。

每样事情，都有好坏。

但是，幸运之神，却不是常常眷顾我们。

有时太过眷顾，却会让自己更加的害怕。

自己太过于执着某些事情，

反而会让自己更加痛苦。

本来很想把事情缩小来看，

但是一经外来刺激，那样事情却会自然的变大，推翻自己之前所想的。

这就是我自己。

还以为自己改变很多，把很多事情都看的比较轻，

其实只是不愿面对。

唉，我该何去和从呢？

追逐，等待。

似乎在追着些什么，

似乎在等待些什么。

感觉它似乎在自己的手中，

感觉它似乎并不在掌握中。

我应该等待些什么,

我应该放弃些什么。

原地踏步，并不是自己想要的。

跨越极限，却又是自己要的吗？

HAPPY CNY

haha....is damn funnyla.......

I have accidentally deleted all my posts........

but nvm..... just start all over again.

Time pass really fast and today is nian chu san.

I really damn regret that I dint apply 3 days leaves.

As i feel i have not enough time to meet up my friends.

And this year is a challenge year to me.

I have just started my working life 2 weeks ago and "resign" come to my minds when the first day i work in GT.

I really cant believe that I dont even have my own seat in the office.

But i have started to get used with that few days later.

I always thought that I can easy to fit myself into a new environment and make new friends.

And I very willing to stay longer in the office and work OT.

But if my OT will disrupt my plan, I'm really really cant accept it and make my upset.

I start to feel i have lose my own life and lose something I wish to have although I just start my working life.

This is so called "audit life" (which also mean no life).........

There are a lot of uncertainties now.

I wish myself can handle it very well.......

By the way, GONG XI FA CAI and wish you all have a prospect year!!!!!